This is a small food rant, along the same lines of my other food rant. I love healthy food and not so 'healthy' food. I eat real food. I believe in whole milk, whole milk dairy products, butter, scratch made bread, and tasty meat as well as almost every vegetable and fruit you could hand me. I like meals that are meat free (give me a good indian curry stew any day) but the one thing I just cant get into is the 'faking it' category. Ya know, like this cauliflower tastes just like real buffalo chicken! Or these chickpeas taste just like real buffalo chicken!
Why does everything need to taste like buffalo chicken?! Oh thats right because if you put enough Franks hot sauce on anything it kind of tastes like buffalo chicken.
I mean... I just eat buffalo chicken. Can I get an amen?
P.S. - I also cant help see those chickpeas that fell out and think of rabbit poop. Seriously maybe thats why I dont like chickpeas unless they are slow cooked in a stew or formed into falafel.
I'm not being naive, I know some people are vegan, vegetarian, meat free, dairy free, gluten free, have allergies and many have very legitimate reasons for doing so. But man sometimes it feels like everyone and their mother is cutting out something for some reason. I cut out caraway and fennel seeds because they make me shiver when I bite into them and I try to stay way from too many highly processed foods. Oh and I am not drinking alcohol at the moment because this baby in my uterus gets to be sober for the duration of its stay. Thats it. All of us omnivores seem to be the silent ones. Going about our days, eating what we want for the most part. Maybe feeling like ..."should I try that cauliflower pizza crust recipe I saw on Pinterest? I mean it seems 'healthier' and maybe it tastes okay" Then I think about it a little more and am like... "Wait, you will not guilt me into it crazy Pinterest boards! I love pizza crust the way it is, so I am just going to eat that and it will be delicious, so suck it cauliflower."
So now when I eat foods like bread loaded with gluten and dairy I think... "I'm doing this for those folks who cant, who wish they could but their bodies wont let them, I raise my pizza slice to you!" Oh and I have a friend who is allergic to chocolate so you better believe I think of her and eat her portion of chocolate right along with mine to make up for it.
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
Friday, July 11, 2014
How far along: 34 Weeks
How big is baby: about 5 lbs and almost full length (18in or so) according to those baby tracker websites.
Weight/ Weight gain: I think I am about 167-168lbs? Though I have been weighing in a few lbs lighter on the Dr. scale than our home scale. But that makes about a 25/26lb weight gain so far. Totally happy with that. I bet with the hot weather and all the fresh food I wont gain as much these last few weeks as I did with Wesley. But who knows?!
Maternity clothes: Yep, full on. Some maternity clothes have even been kicked out for being too short. If it doesn't have ruched sides all the way down then its not for me. I picked up two new tshirts and a tank at old navy a few weeks ago and that has helped. They seem to be the best place locally for basics. Other than that I have been just using what I have from last time. The top above is a bit tent like but so nice and light/cool. It also will work great for breastfeeding after, it was a consignment Gap top that I scored in NYC this past winter. I remember it being so huge and billowy for so long and now it fits perfect.
Sleep: Going solid, I fall asleep great and sleep pretty soundly still. I wake up anytime between 5-7 and am up for the day. A little more tossing and turning as the weeks go on but overall its still good. AC on, body pillow, and our memory foam mattress topper have saved the night, all very worthy investments. Lying down with a belly is such a crazy thing, it relaxes and the baby relaxes and usually starts moving around more, its very fluid.
Food cravings: Peaches and cherries. I loved peaches with Wes and really I just LOVE summer peaches in general. So delicious! Also pie, I will pay someone to make me a pie, I don't have the time or energy but I could eat it all day. I have been totally off eggs for a month or so now but love meat (chicken and red meat mostly). Cold cereal with whole milk and chopped bananas. Peanut butter on toast. Not too into salads but when I do eat them I do like them, I just don't crave those greens as much.
Food (after those first 16 weeks) has been such an afterthought this time. We have a nice shopping/meal schedule in place and it has really changed the way we eat. Meal plan Sunday night (4 dinners and basics written down) then I shop Monday morning with Wes. Then we know what to expect all week. Its been really nice and I am glad we have it in place now. I think I am eating a bit healthier because when I was pregnant with Wes I was working and grabbing to-go food much more. Now I have fresh food at home or leftovers.
Food aversions: Nothing strong. I don't crave yogurt, or eggs or some other things that I am sure once this little girl comes out I will like again. But nothing makes me gag or grosses me out.
Symptoms: If I push it too much or don't drink enough or its a hot day I definitely 'crash and burn' and get clammy and lightheaded and need to lie down/drink/eat. This usually happens in the late afternoon so it works that Torrey gets home and gives me a break. But also I feel like he always sees me so incapable because of this. I keep saying "I swear I was in a good mood/energetic earlier!". I'm not always Mrs. Crankytiredhungrypants. He has been helping out a lot more lately and its been really nice, hes such a good partner and father.
Movement: Lots but good news is she has flipped from posterior to optimal birthing position. I have been going to the chiropractor and it seems to have helped align my pelvis and make it more comfortable for her. With carrying Wes on my right side and some sciatic pain on my left I knew I was a bit off. I don't feel her hands anymore and now I get a lot of butt or feet pushing off to my side. Sometimes so strong I have to push her back down! I love it, its one of my favorite things in the whole wide world about being pregnant.
Ups: Oh I am excited for sure for her arrival. I am feeling fairly productive and on cooler days like today I feel pretty good overall for being 34 weeks pregnant. I have been working about 3 days a week and love it. I feel like I have a very good balance right now between mom duties, work and life. I seem to appreciate it more or remind myself too because I know its going to be newborn cave life for a few months this fall and I will look back on these days and think of them fondly. Just like I think of my non kid days and say "what did I do with all that time?!". But its all been a great and crazy ride and I am so ready for this next adventure.
I have been loving prenatal yoga and a few good friends are in the end of their first trimester (congrats ladies!) and are able to go with me as well as a few friends who are about as far along as I am. Its so fun to get to share that experience with them and occasionally grab some food together after. I am going to miss it when its over!
Downs: Crashing and having those roller coaster physically draining moments. The lack of mobility and movement. Wishing I could spend more time with friends and family as well as have more energy to work and make more. But ah well. If she was born today we would be fairly ready and have the support we need so that's all I can ask for. A few more things to check off the list would be nice but we can do it either way.
Oh and I did totally have the "wait, I have to give BIRTH to this baby?!?!" moment this week with Torrey. Totally broke down. I think it has to happen sometime. With my first pregnancy it was much more of a constant thought and scary to be honest, until about 37 weeks when I changed and was like "lets do this thing". This time I know how it can go, and I just kept thinking... "that was so much work, that was so hard". But I also know the reward at the end and I know I can do it. Its like that 2nd or 3rd marathon, its not as new or exciting but it also isn't nearly as fearful or scary. I am not scared of birth at all. I love my team. I was just like....holy crap this will be happening.... soon.
Next Appointment: Next Weds for a check up then in two more weeks we get to see baby girl again with a position check ultrasound, I cant wait!
(Can you believe this kid? Something about a hair cut and that shirt just screamed "toddler" to me. Though those wrist wrinkles and elbow dimples mean he is still my baby ;)
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
We had a little dance party in the kitchen this morning, it only lasted a song or two but its one of those moments that captures so much. Wes's in all his toddler glory, being thrilled to be dancing. Even more thrilled to be dancing in Dada's arms. Wes's size in relation to us. Me in all my pregnant glory. All of us enjoying the cool morning before Torrey sets off to work and the summer heat sets in.
Monday, June 30, 2014
1. Except for the first half of the day I feel 36 weeks pregnant not 32 weeks, I cant wait for my physical abilities and energy back! I am 'done' with it much earlier this time around.
2. Mornings are great, I am sleeping really hard/well. I feel almost not pregnant in the mornings. Nights kick my butt. I used to do so much after Wes went to bed around the house/walk/run/clean. Now... now.... I cant physically function.
3. I have retired some maternity clothes that aren't long enough and the vast majority of my regular wardrobe. I have entered the 'minimalist' clothing phase. Same 5-6 outfits that should work until the end.
4. This is more mentally challenging than I remember. When my body is done my mind is not. I want to still be productive, it makes me twitch ;)
5. I cant wait to meet this little baby girl but I also need a full 7 more weeks. You hear that girl? 7 weeks.
6. Also lets not gain another 20lbs in the last 7 weeks like I did last time? Mk? I know it was mostly water weight at the end but I'd love to just plateau for a bit instead this time.
7. I love going back and looking at my similar weeks pregnant with Wes. I am so glad I did a weekly recap the first time around and am at least keeping up with every 3-4 weeks this time. So many memories I would have completely forgotten.
8. I miss running. I haven't done it mostly because I only want to in the morning outside (when I feel good and its not too hot) but not to sacrifice sleep and Torrey heads off to work so... it doesn't happen. I would love to try again for a few miles sometime this week, or maybe I should just dust off the treadmill while Wes naps...hummm. I have been stocking up on Instagram feeds of favorite runners, USATF championships, blogs about runners with kids so I can have some motivation to get back into it.
9. Ive been going to a chiropractor. I am still a bit on the fence about if I need it, but it feels good and has helped some sciatic pain I was having in the evening from coming back. And it maybe (fingers crossed) will lead to a quicker birth and get this baby girl to easily move out of the posterior position when the time comes.
10. Our bedroom is set, crib up, changing pad and diapers up. I just have to get newborn clothes out of storage and add them to the bit of girl clothes we have. I love seeing everything every day, a reminder that there will be a little baby there soon.
11. I am looking forward to two weddings, a trip to my home town, a few more date nights and lots of pool/lake fun in these next 2 months.
12. The summer is just starting to get hot now here. AC is going in the bedroom window tonight and I will not be stingy with that thing this year.
13. I have my 32 week prenatal appointment today. After this one I think I go every 2 weeks then 36 weeks is one more ultrasound then every week from there out!
14. Her name is all picked out! We wont share it publicly until she is born but we have known it for a couple months now and I still love it. I used to be afraid of something too 'popular' and its not a unique name but once we both heard it we knew it was the right one.
15. I love feeling the movement. She was pretty mellow yesterday during the day but last night was rocking around almost every time I woke up. I always wonder what body part is what. A butt, elbow, hand, heel? I love this baby belly.
16. I have some how managed good bladder control (her position?) and only get up to pee once a night. But I have also been struggling to stay hydrated so that might have something to do with it.
17. I am loving all the love Wes has been giving, he's such a sweet boy and says "I love you" and "thank you" in the cutest ways. I miss him when he takes long naps or on my work days but I love coming back to him and feel like I am a better parent and he is a more content kid when we can interact with others.
18. Its feels different this time between Torrey and I. Its his busy season at work and he does so much for us that way. I think its like this the second time for a lot of couples. Husbands/partners have seen it before, its almost like they forget you are pregnant, or need to be reminded. Less full on support but also because there is also the first child to take care of. I think a lot has to do with the fact that we don't see each other all day anymore. So when we both have energy in the morning and early in the day we are not together, so by evening we can both be tired, hungry, and cranky. I want to be superwoman and handle it all at home and support him but I also want to flop on the couch and ask for everything to be handed to me, ha! We have had a lot of 'discussions' and they have helped quite a bit, thank god for good communication and persistence, I am stubborn little bugger. Having date nights and going on walks together have also keep us connected.
(That white sangria in the bottom left hand corner was mine and it was DELICIOUS! Other than a sip of someone else's I haven't had any drinks with alcohol this pregnancy. But a little white wine, lots of fruit juice and fresh ginger beer added made the BEST sangria, I will be drinking a bucket of that stuff when this baby is out, maybe for my 31st Birthday Sept 4th?)
19. Speaking of Torrey I am just about to pass him in weight. There comes a time in every pregnancy when I get heavier than him. Oh the life of the wife of a skinny husband!
20. I have some "roller coaster" days. Days where I am so tired all of a sudden its like someone tripped me into a fog and I cant move. But I know this time, these times, don't last. Days where all I want to do is eat, days where all I want to do is lie down and not move. Times when I get spurts of energy and want to nest and clean and work. Times when I can rally and times when I just can not. Growing a human is hard work. My mantra is "I'm not lazy, I'm pregnant". I love so much about being able to grow this baby and give our family a new member that it is all so, so worth it. Maybe so worth it I would do it one more time.... maybe.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
(Summer Kiddo = sweaty, sticky and nicely dirty)
Here are some photos I took today of him this morning, the rain we have had the past two days finally stopped and we were both happy to get out in the backyard.
Yep, I totally did the "say cheese and smile" thing and he totally did the toddler super cheese face thing.
Friday, June 20, 2014
I was reading this blog a few weeks back and she offhandedly talked about how because she is a stay at home mom of three young girls her house is 'lived in' thus this means it requires quite a bit of day to day maintenance. Well duh right? But I hadn't thought of it that way ever before. I always hear people saying they cant keep up with the cleaning, picking up and laundry with small kids. And I feel that way too sometimes and think "How is this getting away from me, I only have one young child, this should be pretty easy". But that is why! Its a 'lived in' house, 24-7. When both people are working the house gets a break. You leave and come back to it in the same condition, good or bad. Nothing plays with itself. Nothing takes all the toys out - ALL THE TOYS OUT - as its own game but then does not actually play with the toys. Nothing eats the food, nothing smears sauce on the table, nothing goes through three outfits a day (me and my child).
Its now a fun magic trick on the days Torrey and I work away from home and Wes is at his Grandmas. Or we head out on a trip somewhere. I try to have the house pretty clean before we leave. Unless the dog gets into the garbage I am always pleasantly surprised that the house is in the same condition as when I left hours ago. Ta-Da!
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
(post run belly shot at about 25 weeks)
Other than little glimpses here and there I haven't talked much about how running was going with this pregnancy. Going in I was only running 3-4 days a week 3-5 miles each time. So I didn't have a strong base, I was just running to stay fit and keep it up. I thought maybe I would do some races this spring and usually I give myself a break around Christmas because its our busy season and we are just swamped with other things. After the last pregnancy I had made a mental note to try to come into this one in better shape with a stronger base so I could maybe run more during. Oh well! Since this baby was a bit of a surprise I knew I wasn't going to be running more than I had been when I got pregnant.
My hopes were that I wouldn't have the same round ligament/pelvic after pain that I did from about 24 weeks on with Wes. Without that I knew I could keep running occasionally in the last trimester. My goal was to run 3 days a week or so and keep with the 3-4 miles each time.
Running pregnant is all about luck and your own body. I don't believe that some people just push through the same pain I felt, well I sure hope they don't! I think some people just have an easier time with it physically and can run their whole pregnancy. That being said I know that its not 'easy' running with a big baby belly, a squished bladder, bigger boobs and a myriad of other things makes it more difficult for everyone. But it is possible. When I see women who are far along running half marathons I generally think "good for them!". They know their bodies and they know what they are doing. But for me running that much is not in the cards. For me running 4 miles pregnant feels like I ran 10-12 after, so I cant imagine pushing my body much out of that zone.
The first few months I tried to get out there a few times a week and just keep it up. My pace was strong and other than a slower first mile to warm up I felt pretty good. We had a VERY COLD, very long winter and I had much more morning sickness this time but by 15 weeks I was feeling better and running 3-4 days a week 3-4 miles each time with some miles dipping in the low 8 min. pace still.
I am happy to say I am still running. But in the last month or so I have only ran a handful of times, each time thinking it would probably be my last. Instead of round ligament pain and pelvic discomfort this time it was this weird side/hip pain on my right side that wasn't my IT band. It came on early but was manageable until about 25 weeks. Then I had one bad run where the further I went the worse it got and I was pretty sore for a day or so after. So I rested it about a week and did yoga and stretched until the pain/tightness was completely gone. I have ran 4-5 times since then with a few times being sore after and a few not so bad. I have been hesitant to keep going but after a few days I feel the itch and try again. I just haven't quite let running go. By this time with Wes I was DONE DONE. The pain was much worse as were the after affects. It was all momma pain by the way nothing harming the little growing babe, but it just wasn't worth it. I didn't want to permanently weaken my pelvic/hip/join muscles.
(pre 5k at 29 weeks)
So I am still chugging along and I gained some motivation and insight this past Sunday when I ran a 5k. I ran one with this pregnancy back on January first and ran 8 min miles easy. I am happy to report that I ran one this Sunday and ran 9 min miles. I hadn't run in over a week and I was expecting to run 10 min pace and maybe have to walk but none of that happened! I felt GREAT! The best during and after I have felt since early in my second trimester. So that kind of threw a wrench in my plans. I planned on it being my last run of this pregnancy, to go out with a bang. But it went so well!
So I am taking some hints from what worked and am going to try to run 2 days a week from here on out. I know its so little but it still means something to me. I just love that blood pumping, sweat inducing, strong breath feeling. The first mile is slow as molasses but by mile two I am almost feeling myself. I think if I run in the mornings when my body feels the best, wear my support belt, wear an old pair of shoes that seem to give me more support that the ones I was wearing early on in this pregnancy, stretch after and just keep a realistic open mind and I may still be chugging along come August. However I could easily try one more time and say... DONE. Who knows?!
I do know that I will never be one of those women who runs half marathons pregnant or runs 30 miles a week pregnant. Its just not in the cards for me. But I also know for sure this time that running will feel great after this baby is born just for the fact that I wont be pregnant anymore. And that I will eventually get back into it and I will be fine.
So that's my running pregnant story. I will let you know how it all turns out.
(Post race with my buddy Nicole, this race the year before was her first 5k ever and since then she has ran two half marathons! She caught the running bug for sure and is rocking it!)