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Saturday, August 23, 2014

The waiting game - 40 Plus weeks with baby #2




(Family photo 40 weeks +2 days)

STATS:

How far along: 40 weeks and 2 days

How big is baby: full grown between 7 and 8 lbs

Weight/ Weight gain: Steady at 174/175lbs. Actually pretty happy about this. I have said before I gained quite a bit at the very end with Wes and retained a ton of water and got very puffy looking. This time I gained about 30 lbs total and feel smaller and less puffy. I don't feel like I 'did' much of anything differently. I am probably more active day to day and eat better but I also have had little to no time or energy to walk or try to 'exercise' this time.  Different babies, different pregnancies!

  (40 weeks +1)

Maternity clothes: Pulled some pants out since we have had cooler weather. Same long tanks and a few flowy shirts. Pulled out all my button downs, nursing shirts and got a few more for this time around. I was totally unprepared with that last time so now I feel like I have a good stash of postpartum/nursing friendly clothing options.

Sleep: Oh man its been kind of total crap. Anticipation of my mom and step dads visit coupled with just thinking that any night I could go into labor means I am up a lot. I go to sleep fine but then 2-3 hours later I have been waking up for at least an hour or two then back asleep and the cycle continues. Last night was better and hopefully tonight will be even better. Naps don't make the nighttime better or worse so I have been sneaking those in during the day when I can.

Food cravings: Pie, chicken... I had some heartburn this week for the first time. I cant believe I dealt with that crap for most of Wes's pregnancy. Its a pain! Chocolate makes it worse, boooo.

Food aversions: No strong ones but I am interested to see what I crave the few days after this baby is born. Its always the things I tended to avoid while pregnant. With Wes it was yogurt and bananas and they tasted SO GOOD again after he was born.

Symptoms: Of labor, still NONE. She is low so that's good, I will get checked at my appointment on Monday morning if I am still going strong. Sleep has been rough but that is more due to anticipation than anything. I have these quick thoughts of "oh is that a crampy feeling?!" "is that some lower back pain?" but then its just gas pains or I have to pee or something. With her feeling lower I get some shooting crotch pain now and then and a sore groin if I walk too much. All to be expected at this point! I'm big and awkward and feeling like a turtle on its back, ya know, the usual at 40 weeks.

Movement: Still going strong. Hiccups every evening, lots of movement around dinner time. Lots of hands and feet and pushing on my right side.

Gender: Girl


Ups: My mom and step dad came to visit. They just left actually. It was SO NICE to have them. They puttered around the house, cooked us dinner, did laundry, cleaned, gardened, played with Wes. I really was able to take it easy and relax. My mom and I got pedicures. They got to spend some much needed quality time with all of us, so in a way it was almost good this baby did not show up while they were here.

Torrey is slow at work and able to help out more. Its been cool and nice out. All my pregnant buddies who were due near me have had their sweet sweet babies and seeing all the photos makes me so happy for them! I cant wait to cuddle them and meet them. MAYBE I will be still pregnant this week and get to get some of that newborn smell love in my system before mine comes. I hear it was a mad house at the hospital so it could be a good thing she is taking her time.

Downs: My mom won't be there for this birth. She was able to be a strong support person through the long birth of Wes and it was so wonderful to share that experience with her. But due to some family care taking she could only come up for those few days this time. Its super bittersweet. I know what she is doing is very important and I know I don't need her at this birth and it will go well without her. But it was plan A and the best outcome we could have hoped for to have her there. A little redemptive too as I am sure it will be shorter and smoother than the birth of Wes. The circle of life and roller coaster of emotions is a crazy thing. We all did our best to wish this baby to make its appearance during or before her stay and that is all we could do. Plan B is in the works, hopefully she can plan to come up in a few weeks. I am so thankful I have my husband and wonderful Doula Francesca to be there for the birth and know we will be sending lots of videos and photos to my mom.

The sleep being messy was mentally challenging. I am one of those people that kind of FREAK OUT in my head and worry all about the next day if I am not sleeping well at night. Its like a crazy night paranoia. I have learned with experience that I am usually FINE the next day and that is more mental than anything but hopefully I will get some good sleep in before she comes I really dont want to go into labor tired even though I know adrenalin will kick in and get me through.

Now that my mom and step-dad have come and gone I don't feel any real hurry to have this baby on the outside. If she wants to take 41 weeks she can. If she wants to be born in September so be it. As long as I am healthy and she is doing well then that's all I can ask for. I would rather not be induced and I want to hold off on having my membranes stripped unless it gets to the very end. Either way it looks like she will be a Virgo like me and not a Leo!

Next Appointment: Monday morning

22 month old Big Brother Wesley

Monday, August 11, 2014

Unexpected perks - The structure of parenthood


Before nap time mornings have been fun lately, I wish I was more physically capable but we make do and have some good outdoor adventures

Before we had Wes, Torrey and I had a pretty flexible lifestyle. Since we run our own business our hours were ours to make. We worked a lot but we were constantly waking up too late and going to bed too late. Kicking ourselves for waisting mornings, being slow to get things done or procrastinating too much.

I think something unexpected with having a child has been our structure. We could be more loose parents but we aren't. Having a daily structure and routine for Wes works for us and him and leads to a good sleeper and a most of the time pretty happy kiddo. (Newborn-hood is a whole different ball game, structure didn't start to set in for us until 7 months or so)

Just this morning I said to Torrey "I do more before 9 am than I used to do in a half day". Having kids changes things and some people are afraid of that but I am so thankful for these changes, its been so good for us. As this new baby approaches I am taking time to enjoy the routine we have now and looking forward to a new routine in...um...6-8 months that will work for us as well. I hope and pray that this new baby doesnt make too much of a difference in Wes's daily schedule. If I can keep him on track I hope that it will make everything smoother. I feel like I dont really know what I am getting into other than it might be a bit messy for a while!


Early morning bagels at the beach

1. I wake up early and get stuff done: Wes is up between 6 and 7:30 most mornings. Waking up for a cute little human is much easier than waking up for no one but yourself. He is READY TO GO and I have to be too. Once we had a few months of this structure and I was getting decent nights sleep it became something I am very thankful for. I love getting so much done before noon!

2. I cook : Before Wes Torrey did all the cooking. I knew how to cook but he was better at it and I didn't really like doing it. Now I am the one who provides breakfast/lunch and prep or cook some of the dinners for our family. I get the meal plan organized, do the grocery shopping and cook the more simple/basic stuff. I have learned to love providing food for my son (even if he doesn't always LOVE eating it) and myself. I eat on a more regular schedule and we eat out way less.

3. I go to bed early: So with this pregnancy its easy to call it a night at 9 and go off to bed. I am usually asleep by 10-10:30. As a non pregnant person I sometimes struggle with early nights and bouts of insomnia. Most of the time we are stuck here past 7pm anyways. Unless we get a sitter or just one of us goes out, we have to stay home. So this aids in the easy routine.

4. I am more productive in my 'child free time': I know I only have a few hours a day where I am not responsible for another human being. Nap time, after bed time and my work days. So if something is looming or I am getting ready for a show I buckle down better. Also with more 'breaks' that are forced because of taking care of Wes or doing family things I don't get sick of my job as much. I long to sew and I long to get to work and those days are so much more appreciated. I didn't truly realize how much I love my job and what I got out of it until I had a child. This will take a big hit when this baby comes but since my sewing room is at home I am hoping to still be able to find pockets of time to work, we will see!

5. No boredom: Pre-baby Torrey and I would sometimes feel antsy and bored in our evenings. Not wanting to spend money on going out but also sick of the same old TV routine. I think boredom is way less common now. Spending lots of time one-on-one with a child/baby can sometimes be called "boring" or have "boring" parts but I really think people are describing it wrong. I think they just get lonely. Wes is tons of entertainment and not boring at all, but its not the same as adult interaction. When there is another adult around to accompany me, taking care of my child is never boring, so I know that its not him, its me. Its loneliness. I often think about that 'tribe' of the past, mothers, grandmothers, aunts and cousins all helping out to raise children.

6. Appreciate the little things: I appreciate my time away, I appreciate my time with my family, I appreciate my work time, I appreciate my running time, I appreciate my friend time, I appreciate my me time. I don't take things for granted as much.

I think its easy to think of our time before kids as "what did we do then?!" and "freedom!" but in reality this time is amazing in its own way and I really enjoy these unexpected perks of parenthood.


Oh and since Wes sleeps till 7 or so Torrey and I keep saying that we get to sleep in later NOW than we will when they are in school. Why oh why do schools start so early...blurgh.

Thursday, July 31, 2014

37 weeks with baby girl







STATS:

How far along: 37 Weeks - Full term! While there is only like a 5% chance this baby will come in the next week or so it means that if she does everybody is fine with that. They wont try to slow my labor down or stop it. We will say... 'here we go' and have a baby! P.S. - Mind blown continually that I am this far along and even that we are having another baby. Really I don't think I have ever fully gotten over the fact that this was a 'surprise' pregnancy, though I am so thrilled that we are doing this now and not a year from now!

How big is baby: 6+ lbs and 19 inches according to website estimates. We had our last position check ultrasound on Tuesday morning and I forgot to ask what they thought size wise. I think they told us last time with Wes. But then again that can be off so maybe its better not to know. She didn't seem surprised or concerned either way so all must be good in the womb hood.

Weight/ Weight gain: Um... 3 lbs in a week. Or is it 4lbs in two weeks? Either way I had enough of a jump that the midwife checked my ankles when she walked in because she thought I would be retaining water. Ha! Its strange because I was SO tired all weekend, like I just wanted to lay on the couch and only move my eyeballs tired. So maybe this little bean decided to grow a whole bunch in a few days. Either way I am in the 173/174 range (30lbs gain) range and feeling and looking good I think. I got real puffy those last few weeks with Wes so we will see if that happens again.

Maternity clothes: I have a handful of outfits. 4 maternity shirts, 3 maternity tank tops, 2 pairs of shorts, one skirt and a few pairs of jeans (but its usually too hot for those). They will work until the end, but even some are getting short in the belly and I haven't even dropped yet! Sorry for any exposed skin people see in the next few weeks.

Sleep: Pretty good. I sleep hard early on and usually when I wake up to pee in the early morning I struggle for a bit to go back to sleep. Its mostly mind racing stuff right now. To-do lists, what ifs, and strong hiccups and kicks coming from baby girl. Actually one of the best things, the other night, the way I was laying and where her back was right up against the surface of my belly when I put my hand on her it was like holding a tiny baby with hiccups. They were SO strong and her weight was there, it was awesome.

Food cravings: PIE! Give me pie, and nectarines, and meat and cheese. But mostly pie. However I am too lazy (no...no... just would rather spend energy on other things) to make it so I have bought some crappy ones and forced myself to eat half of them. I keep thinking about my birthday on Sept. 4th. I want white sangria with fresh ginger ale, homemade pie (preferably my moms) and then I said I also want a Ben & Jerry's Ice cream cake. Ha! Hopefully I wont be in the hospital so these things can happen. Plus I will be hungry as a horse breastfeeding and dropping weight at the same time so pretty much the perfect Birthday to PIG OUT.

Food aversions: None

Symptoms: Of labor?!?! None. I feel I have at least two weeks. I wouldn't be surprised if she was a few days early but not weeks early. And really what the heck do I know.

Shes in good position, head down, chin tucked, all those darn limbs over on my right side. I swear she is trying to dig her way out by my right hip bone sometimes. Those sharp little feet!

No heartburn, no stretch marks, no swelling (yet). I have super tired days and pretty energetic days. Fortunately the past few days have been the later. Its cool and almost fall like here, I swear mother nature (or global warming- eeek) is being nice to the pregnant women of Burlington this summer. Its been relatively cool and not too humid.

There have been morning naps and afternoon naps. Slow short walks, sudden spells of crappy feeling that means 'lie down and drink water'. But maybe its raising a toddler or maybe is because I am trying to work as much as possible but things are chugging along. Wes wont let me be too lazy or self absorbed and that's probably a good thing.

Oh and I need to rest and get SO winded when I go up the stairs, even at a slow pace.

Movement: Lots! Even though she is cramped in there she is still bumping around most of the time. Lots of pokey pokes on the right side like I said before. My favorite is the full back/body shifting, the big hard body stretching out on the front and rubbing her little back.

Oh and my midwife at the ultrasound said she could even see her hair! So she has some! Not bald and who knows if its as much as Wes but there will be hair. Oh and if she is like me.... a ton of hair.


Baby me, and my hair didn't fall out and regrow a different color like Wes, it just got thicker and longer. 

Gender: Girl - Very positive, we saw her we little girl parts again

Ups: Ultrasound and breakfast out with Torrey. Wes has been so much fun and loving a good snuggle/book reading on the bed time that I am so thankful for. He was never really into just sitting down to books until recently and its been so nice. And even just playing around and wrestling on the couch/bed. He can jump all over me and I don't care because I just get to lie there! Works for both of us!

I am very very much looking forward to our doula coming over tonight to chat and hang out. We haven't had a sit down meeting with her yet. She is the same doula we had with Wes and I feel like I know her so much better now and know what she can do and cant do for me and know what I want to ask and talk about. I am really excited to just chat with her and have her by my side. My mom has been busy during this pregnancy with some family obligations (that are very necessary and understood) but that means she might not make it up for the birth so having Franchesca be there will be even more important. I love Torrey and he did an amazing job last time too but something about having another woman present for me is very comforting and I am so glad we have decided to have her again.

I love seeing all this little girls clothes piled up (Wes goes over and pets them and says "baby, baby" and my heard melts all over the ground). Her crib set up and her diapers stacked. We saw a 3 month old yesterday and I loved chatting with his mom about those early days and struggles. I know the hard times and the wonderful newborn times will go so fast. Last time it felt like it might last forever. But I know now how it zooms right by, the world keeps turning.

Downs: Those super tired/not wanting to function times. I want to get stuff done and when my body says no its hard not to listen. But the good times make up for it. Maybe its nesting, maybe its just the roller coaster of pregnancy but I am feeling good today and that is what matters.

Next Appointment: Next Thursday and then the Tuesday after that when we finally get to see Julie the OB who delivered Wes! I don't know how but we haven't had an appointment with her yet so I am excited to chat with her a bit. Who knows maybe she will deliver both my babies!

Some other fun photos from the past few weeks:

Belly hard at work:


Wes stepping on his sister:


Morning snuggles:


Friday, July 25, 2014

Thoughts on labor


Over the past two years I have come to realize how thankful I am that Wes's birth turned out the way it did. In short, that he was born vaginally (read his birth story here).

If you are at all in the birthing/babies world you have probably watched "The Business of Being Born" and read some Ina May Gaskin. To supplement those I highly recommend this podcast and these blog posts, one and two. You probably know that the US has had an increasing C-section rate and that they all cant be 'medically necessary'.

This video from the New Yorker is really a wonderful synapses. Watch it (if you haven't already) then read the rest.

VIDEO: An Unnecessary Cut?

I love how the information is presented and how they stress doulas and other ways that women can be proactive in their birth. I have watched it 3 or 4 times and am strangely addicted to it. I did not have a c-section but that doesn't matter, its so compelling and just presents so much without strong bias.

I have been getting chiropractic care this time around from about 30 weeks on and when I told my chiropractor about my birth with Wes she stated how she thought I was lucky that my providers let me labor and push for as long as I did. And that got me thinking again...

In the US on a whole, as they say in the video, the C-Section rate for first births is around 30%. At our local hospital Fletcher Allen its about 15%. So right there I had better odds. Then my providers, an awesome group of OB's and Midwives at Matiri, seem to be known for a more 'natural' approach to birth and are pretty up to date with the strong movement away from unnecessary c-sections.

But I am sure in other locations and at other hospitals I wouldn't not have been given as much time and especially not without strongly advocating for it and myself. With Wes I started having contractions on Sunday night, on and off Monday with nothing really progressing,  my water broke Tuesday at 9am, I didn't go into the hospital for good until Weds. at 4 am and Wes wasn't born until 10pm that night. To say it was a long process is a bit of an understatement. It wasn't all painful and it wasn't all intense... actually much of those early hours/days was pretty calm, just waiting for it to ramp up. With the help of my amazing doula I felt more supported in making decisions, like going home Tuesday night after going into the hospital for a non-stress test and get some sleep. A decision that in the long run I am so thankful for.

But I have also learned that I need to speak up for myself. Something about being a parent has made me more 'ballsy'. I am less afraid to talk, to ask questions, to ask for what I want. As they say in the video you do have some say, you are allowed to ask questions and it is up to you as a patient to be as informed as you can. I really am enjoying the process this time around. I am more realistic, have some previous experience and also humbled by birth. I dont fear it and I know that no matter how much I 'plan' we wont know how it will go until it gets here. I have lots of hopes for this birth. There is a very good chance it will be faster and smoother. Its not guaranteed of course, but even my OB said that "it really cant take any longer than before", ha! And I am hoping with the right mix of information, doula, support, chiropractic care, yoga, awesome nurses, and great OB/midwife this baby will join the world fairly smoothly. I have some 'birth wishes' that I will share with my Doula, husband and birthing team and we will see how it goes. I have always had very little regrets about Wesley's birth and none that are big enough to think I really wish I had done something differently. I actually have thought about the possibility of home birth this time around but I enjoyed my team and experience so much the first time that I really do want to stick with my group again. I know everyone even better this time and I think that will help too. I have trust in them. Much like the end of the video (even though it wasn't a 'natural' birth) once he was out I was so filled with joy, joy that it was over, joy that I did it, joy that he was out in the world and joy that he 'paved the way' for this little girl.

We will see! Countdown is on... less than a month until my due date!



Wednesday, July 16, 2014

I just cant do it captain... I dont have the power - Food rant

This is a small food rant, along the same lines of my other food rant. I love healthy food and not so 'healthy' food. I eat real food. I believe in whole milk, whole milk dairy products, butter, scratch made bread, and tasty meat as well as almost every vegetable and fruit you could hand me. I like meals that are meat free (give me a good indian curry stew any day) but the one thing I just cant get into is the 'faking it' category. Ya know, like this cauliflower tastes just like real buffalo chicken! Or these chickpeas taste just like real buffalo chicken!


Why does everything need to taste like buffalo chicken?! Oh thats right because if you put enough Franks hot sauce on anything it kind of tastes like buffalo chicken.

I mean... I just eat buffalo chicken. Can I get an amen?

P.S. - I also cant help see those chickpeas that fell out and think of rabbit poop. Seriously maybe thats why I dont like chickpeas unless they are slow cooked in a stew or formed into falafel.

I'm not being naive, I know some people are vegan, vegetarian, meat free, dairy free, gluten free, have allergies and many have very legitimate reasons for doing so. But man sometimes it feels like everyone and their mother is cutting out something for some reason. I cut out caraway and fennel seeds because they make me shiver when I bite into them and I try to stay way from too many highly processed foods. Oh and I am not drinking alcohol at the moment because this baby in my uterus gets to be sober for the duration of its stay. Thats it. All of us omnivores seem to be the silent ones. Going about our days, eating what we want for the most part. Maybe feeling like ..."should I try that cauliflower pizza crust recipe I saw on Pinterest? I mean it seems 'healthier' and maybe it tastes okay" Then I think about it a little more and am like... "Wait, you will not guilt me into it crazy Pinterest boards! I love pizza crust the way it is, so I am just going to eat that and it will be delicious, so suck it cauliflower."




So now when I eat foods like bread loaded with gluten and dairy I think... "I'm doing this for those folks who cant, who wish they could but their bodies wont let them, I raise my pizza slice to you!" Oh and I have a friend who is allergic to chocolate so you better believe I think of her and eat her portion of chocolate right along with mine to make up for it.



Friday, July 11, 2014

34 Weeks - with baby #2







STATS:

How far along:  34 Weeks

How big is baby: about 5 lbs and almost full length (18in or so) according to those baby tracker websites.

Weight/ Weight gain: I think I am about 167-168lbs? Though I have been weighing in a few lbs lighter on the Dr. scale than our home scale. But that makes about a 25/26lb weight gain so far. Totally happy with that. I bet with the hot weather and all the fresh food I wont gain as much these last few weeks as I did with Wesley. But who knows?!

Maternity clothes: Yep, full on. Some maternity clothes have even been kicked out for being too short. If it doesn't have ruched sides all the way down then its not for me. I picked up two new tshirts and a tank at old navy a few weeks ago and that has helped. They seem to be the best place locally for basics. Other than that I have been just using what I have from last time. The top above is a bit tent like but so nice and light/cool. It also will work great for breastfeeding after, it was a consignment Gap top that I scored in NYC this past winter. I remember it being so huge and billowy for so long and now it fits perfect.

Sleep: Going solid, I fall asleep great and sleep pretty soundly still. I wake up anytime between 5-7 and am up for the day. A little more tossing and turning as the weeks go on but overall its still good. AC on, body pillow, and our memory foam mattress topper have saved the night, all very worthy investments. Lying down with a belly is such a crazy thing, it relaxes and the baby relaxes and usually starts moving around more, its very fluid.

Food cravings: Peaches and cherries. I loved peaches with Wes and really I just LOVE summer peaches in general. So delicious! Also pie, I will pay someone to make me a pie, I don't have the time or energy but I could eat it all day. I have been totally off eggs for a month or so now but love meat (chicken and red meat mostly). Cold cereal with whole milk and chopped bananas. Peanut butter on toast. Not too into salads but when I do eat them I do like them, I just don't crave those greens as much.

Food (after those first 16 weeks) has been such an afterthought this time. We have a nice shopping/meal schedule in place and it has really changed the way we eat. Meal plan Sunday night (4 dinners and basics written down) then I shop Monday morning with Wes. Then we know what to expect all week. Its been really nice and I am glad we have it in place now. I think I am eating a bit healthier because when I was pregnant with Wes I was working and grabbing to-go food much more. Now I have fresh food at home or leftovers.

Food aversions: Nothing strong. I don't crave yogurt, or eggs or some other things that I am sure once this little girl comes out I will like again. But nothing makes me gag or grosses me out.

Symptoms: If I push it too much or don't drink enough or its a hot day I definitely 'crash and burn' and get clammy and lightheaded and need to lie down/drink/eat. This usually happens in the late afternoon so it works that Torrey gets home and gives me a break. But also I feel like he always sees me so incapable because of this. I keep saying "I swear I was in a good mood/energetic earlier!". I'm not always Mrs. Crankytiredhungrypants. He has been helping out a lot more lately and its been really nice, hes such a good partner and father.

Movement: Lots but good news is she has flipped from posterior to optimal birthing position. I have been going to the chiropractor and it seems to have helped align my pelvis and make it more comfortable for her. With carrying Wes on my right side and some sciatic pain on my left I knew I was a bit off. I don't feel her hands anymore and now I get a lot of butt or feet pushing off to my side. Sometimes so strong I have to push her back down! I love it, its one of my favorite things in the whole wide world about being pregnant.

Gender: Girl

Ups: Oh I am excited for sure for her arrival. I am feeling fairly productive and on cooler days like today I feel pretty good overall for being 34 weeks pregnant. I have been working about 3 days a week and love it. I feel like I have a very good balance right now between mom duties, work and life. I seem to appreciate it more or remind myself too because I know its going to be newborn cave life for a few months this fall and I will look back on these days and think of them fondly. Just like I think of my non kid days and say "what did I do with all that time?!". But its all been a great and crazy ride and I am so ready for this next adventure.

I have been loving prenatal yoga and a few good friends are in the end of their first trimester (congrats ladies!) and are able to go with me as well as a few friends who are about as far along as I am. Its so fun to get to share that experience with them and occasionally grab some food together after. I am going to miss it when its over!

Downs: Crashing and having those roller coaster physically draining moments. The lack of mobility and movement. Wishing I could spend more time with friends and family as well as have more energy to work and make more. But ah well. If she was born today we would be fairly ready and have the support we need so that's all I can ask for. A few more things to check off the list would be nice but we can do it either way.

Oh and I did totally have the "wait, I have to give BIRTH to this baby?!?!" moment this week with Torrey. Totally broke down. I think it has to happen sometime. With my first pregnancy it was much more of a constant thought and scary to be honest, until about 37 weeks when I changed and was like "lets do this thing". This time I know how it can go, and I just kept thinking... "that was so much work, that was so hard". But I also know the reward at the end and I know I can do it. Its like that 2nd or 3rd marathon, its not as new or exciting but it also isn't nearly as fearful or scary. I am not scared of birth at all. I love my team. I was just like....holy crap this will be happening.... soon.

Next Appointment: Next Weds for a check up then in two more weeks we get to see baby girl again with a position check ultrasound, I cant wait!

(Can you believe this kid? Something about a hair cut and that shirt just screamed "toddler" to me. Though those wrist wrinkles and elbow dimples mean he is still my baby ;)

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Dance Party




We had a little dance party in the kitchen this morning, it only lasted a song or two but its one of those moments that captures so much. Wes's in all his toddler glory, being thrilled to be dancing. Even more thrilled to be dancing in Dada's arms. Wes's size in relation to us.  Me in all my pregnant glory. All of us enjoying the cool morning before Torrey sets off to work and the summer heat sets in.